Time drills a heavy hand on the foundation of life. I sometimes yearn for a moment to stop, to wait, to pause, so that I can enjoy it more.
Things whirl around me in a tunnel of exhilaration. Welcome to the sparkle of my existence. Laughter. Love. Dreams. Inspiration. Life. Hope. Change.
I love my life.
It takes off at the most random moments. It twirls round and slaps me in the face. It reminds me how imperfect I am. It shows me the genuine friends and true laughter I am given. It sifts out flaws and blemishes and shows me where in the fix-it-yourself-manual (the Bible, you know. Hmmm, not quite its a fix-it-yourself-manual) I can find the comfort and aid I need.
There are only a few things I can honestly say get me down in life. I like being happy. I like smiling.
But there are times when I smile and laugh and look around and can't see the authenticity of friendship smiling back at me. The face is plaster and its stiff-lipped grin hurts.
And then I stop and stare myself in the eyes. Does it matter? Who am I to despair at the ways of others? Can I blame them for something I do not understand? It is time for me to give them my smile and let them take is as they want it. God is the strength behind my life. It does not matter how they take it. What matters is that I give it.
And so I have let them go. My heart will be secure in Christ. A frown can always turn into a smile. And may I be the one to turn it upside-down. I don't want anyone to ever feel like I am pushing them off, like I keep my smiles for a select few and them alone. I don't want them to think I am snobbish, unkind, aloof, uninterested. This is the world and in it are God's people. Every one of them belongs to him. And I want to help them all see his love.
This post has rambled and gone far away from where I started. But it is inspiration and came from somewhere I do not know, something deep inside me. So I will let it out. I will give it flight.
Take it or leave it, it is my heart.
Here are some loverly pictures I adore.
Enjoy your life, my dears. It is worth every struggle.