Life, jazz, God, and stuff

Sweet pie, I'm happy!

I'm not sure why.

Well, actually, I do know why.

But that is top secret.

Anyhow, I went and helped out with a friends' soccer team today. It is co-coached by one of my team members and almost all the girls on it are my friends too {it is a high school team}. It was super fun.

This is a pic of me and another of my team mates {who also helped out today}.



Ok, test. Who am I?

Obviously, dear friends who know me.....don't answer. LOL!

-_* {I discovered this winking guy and love him so much!}

This week has been really good for me.

I've spent so much time in prayer and meditation and reading God's word. I feel in tune with Him right now and that is sooooooo amazing.

I went through a really rough period of life for about six years. I was alone. I felt unloved. Unwanted. And utterly forgotten.

We had moved 2,000 miles away from everyone and everything I had ever known, to a place so completely remote of what I knew....I couldn't even find my way to the grocery store.

I was broken.

And slowly, I began to bond to Christ, my one and only consolation. I found my solace in Him. I found the power to face life.

It wasn't like, all of a sudden I leaped into His arms and everything was ok.

But over time, I was strengthened. Some of the ice melted from my heart. The hardness broke away from my soul.

I felt free.

And, just as slowly, God began to bring people into my life. One by one, they knocked over my walls, my trust issues, and became....my friends.

Real friends.

It's not a permanent fix. Aw, we all know we are just human. But whenever the trials, the doubts, the fears rise up, I just think about Him and it all becomes so meaningless, so powerless, so empty.

What are these minuscule troubles of life in the glint of eternity after all?

What are these petty squabbles and simple disagreements all about? Who cares? In an hour, in a day, in a month, in ten years.....who will remember and what will it matter.

Life, love, truth. THESE are the things that will be remembered.

So invest in them.

And that kind of changed my life. Not just because God began to fix it. But because He fixed me. And I let Him. That is the key. You have to let Him, let Him take over. Forever.

And it will hurt.

But then it will change.

And YOU will change.

Forever.



A very dear friend sent this to me today. She made my year today, by agreeing to be my Olympic Challenge Buddy {found HERE}. I am soooooooo super excited. She now knows more about me than most people. Which is scary and awesome. I don't open up my heart to a lot of people. Really. Though it seems that I do. I have to her. And I feel safe. Which is also awesome.

So, here is an encouraging thought for all of you.

It can be fixed.

Life will never always be perfect. We live in a fallen world. Satan broke in and destroyed the beautiful perfection God created. But, God is here to help us survive it. We messed up. But He never left us. It is not just happenstance that keeps us afloat.

And it is not just happenstance that when I gave everything to him, surrendered it all, and told Him that I would take whatever He gave....that things finally began to fall into place.

So have faith, trust in Him, and wait for that moment. Because it will come.

He promises that.



Tomorrow is Friday!!!! That makes me uber happy. I can't wait to see what kind of day it will be. I hope a good one. I have doubts. It snowed here today.... :P I hate snow. Don't kill me. It's just about the only thing I hate.

But it's wet, and cold, and *shivers*, I don't like it.

I like hot. Really hot. Pretty sure I could move to Africa and be happy.

Well, not really, unless my whole world moved with me, but in theory, I'm prepared to be happy in Africa. ;)

I hope you all have a glorious evening!!! ;)

CKC